I decided a few days back that I’ll put actual things down here, didn’t I? And not things like what series I’ve been watching-ish.
I had (have?) a friend.
Let’s call him X.
We had a pretty solid bond during a couple years (2009 – 2010) we were in the same batch; discussing problems, having Momos while making fun of our Physics teacher’s (who looked a lot like Mayawati) tone and style after class, wondering about the future and other stuff – go figure. I bet he’d tell you the same. It hit me as I wrote the last sentence that – it was SEVEN years ago.
Do you ever get that feeling that the past seems closer and future seems farther than it really is?
Anyways, fast forward a few years and we’re both in different colleges in New Delhi. We wish each other on birthdays digitally and occasionally chat on Facebook. I did call him and we talked sometimes during our Freshman year, but I can’t call him everyday anymore like I used to. He texted me on WhatsApp yesterday at 1:04 AM – ‘Happy new year negi :D’. I hit back with something seemingly witty but lame – ‘Happy New Semester 😛 :P’. And that was it.
It saddens me deeply – the way things have turned out between us. Maybe I being overly dramatic because of New Year and shit. Or maybe that’s just my bad for living in the past and I need to learn to let byegones be byegones?
You know, I don’t like it when they say: To be or not to be, that is the question. To hold on or to let go – that is the question. The only one that’s ever been in all relationships.