The Upshot

I decided a few days back that I’ll put actual things down here, didn’t I? And not things like what series I’ve been watching-ish.

I had (have?) a friend. Let’s call him X.

We had a pretty solid bond during a couple years (2009 – 2010) we were in the same batch; discussing problems, having Momos while making fun of our Physics teacher’s (who looked a lot like Mayawati) tone and style after class, wondering about the future and other stuff – go figure. I bet he’d tell you the same. It hit me as I wrote the last sentence that – it was SEVEN years ago.

Do you ever get that feeling that the past seems closer and future seems farther than it really is?

Anyways, fast forward a few years and we’re both in different colleges in New Delhi. We wish each other on birthdays digitally and occasionally chat on Facebook. I did call him and we talked sometimes during our Freshman year, but I can’t call him everyday anymore like I used to.Β He texted me on WhatsApp yesterday at 1:04 AM – ‘Happy new year negi :D’. I hit back with something seemingly witty but lame – ‘Happy New Semester πŸ˜› :P’. And that was it.

It saddens me deeply – the way things have turned out between us. Maybe I being overly dramatic because of New Year and shit. Or maybe that’s just my bad for living in the past and I need to learn to let byegones be byegones?

You know, I don’t like it when they say: To be or not to be, that is the question. To hold on or to let go – that is the question. The only one that’s ever been in all relationships.

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  1. Pratyusha says:

    I guess, every person comes across this phase. But I believe people come and go. No one sticks around in your life except for few. Terming them as “best buds”. Mostly they turn out to be your childhood friends. We end up getting so engrossed in our immediate environments. It’s physically impossible to stay in touch with every person who were part of your life in some particular phase of your life. πŸ™‚

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    1. I’ve known this from as long back as I can imagine. But I guess, that’s the difference between knowing and realizing something upfront!

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      1. Pratyusha says:

        Yes, it takes time to realise and follow/ implement that in your life. Lolz. I took my whole life to learn and implement it. Trust me, I am more happier as a person. πŸ™‚

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        1. I’m just glad πŸ™‚

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          1. Pratyusha says:

            I am glad that you are glad πŸ˜€

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            1. I can continue this chain, you know?

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              1. Pratyusha says:

                Your wish πŸ˜€

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                1. I am gonna let you win πŸ˜›

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                  1. Pratyusha says:

                    Hahahha. You believe in giving πŸ˜‰

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                    1. Nah! It’s just that I’m using WordPress on phone right now and the app is very difficult to manage. Had I been on my laptop, the scenario would’ve been different. πŸ˜›

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                    2. Pratyusha says:

                      Hahahah.
                      Would like to experience that πŸ˜›

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                    3. Stay tuned πŸ˜€

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                    4. Pratyusha says:

                      Hahah. Offcourse πŸ˜€

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  2. Pratyusha says:

    It comes down to priorities and people whom you love. It’s always the choice you make. πŸ™‚

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    1. Exactly. But, resolving it if they clash is the problem. Isn’t it?

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  3. Pratyusha says:

    Yes agreed πŸ™‚

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  4. pseudomonaz says:

    I can so relate to this that I don’t know what to say… You’ve stolen my words…

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    1. I know this feeling. πŸ˜›

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  5. Can totally, utterly relate to these words… I believe almost everyone.. No, scratch the last. EVERYONE of us goes through something like this at least a couple of times.. Friends, lovers, Acquaintances – it doesn’t matter. The loss hits just as hard.. Wonder what should one do to actually stop thinking about something that happened years ago.. wish there was an algorithm for this.. :/

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    1. You know, when I wrote this, I was thinking it was all just in my head.
      I now feel silly for thinking that it was something unique I was feeling. Indeed, everyone must have felt this way at some point in their lives but they deal with it rather than being dramatic on a public blog. πŸ˜›

      I just wrote in my last post that I want people to be able to relate to my writing.
      And when they genuinely tell me that, it pretty much makes my day. πŸ™‚

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      1. Well, you know how drama is like spice. A dash of it makes everything awesome. πŸ˜›

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